imaginary life

heart

2010-06-14T21:02:00.000-07:00

I hate the way u talk 2 me
And the way u cut your hair
I hate the way u make me smile
I hate it when u stare
I hate your dumb combat boots
And the way u read my mind
I hate u so much.. it makes me sick
It even make me rhyme
I hate it-
I hate the way you’re always right
I hate it when u lie
I hate it when u make me laugh,
Even worse then u make me cry
I hate it when u’re not around
And the fact that u didn’t call
But mostly, I hate the way I don’t hate u
Not even close,
Not even a little bit
Not even at all

home sweet home..

2010-03-13T02:13:00.000-08:00

well as u guys wish.. i'm active back in blog.. haah..!! afte a long..long tyme
what's da topic rite now.. wait.wait.. let me guess..
err..
err..
haah!!
NOTHING...
juz went back home from seseri.. aahhh.. as usual.. miss all ma fwn especially da cutty2 maz.. fafa.. fary..atul n blablabla..
soo stress stay in seseri.. although it is oredy 1month pass but i still cant get along wif them.. stress..stress.. only 1 things in their mind.. STUDY..STUDY.. no tyme 2 chat2.. joking2.. WOOT??!! i kno i'm not crazy bout book but plzzz.. help me out...!!
first prob n da really..really critical 1 is i still cannot do add.mths.. dunt understand wat da teacher doin.. we r oredy in chapter 3 but i feel nothing!! nothing stick in my mind about add.maths..nothing at all..
second prob is sleepy!!!
zzZZZzzzzZZzZzz..
especially in maths subject.. it is always in da last period.. well u kno..hot day..tired.. what else i can do other then sleep..?? but sumtimes in physic n history olso lyke that.. haha.. light off at 11.50 pm.. but we usually sleep at 12pm.. wake up at 4.30.. imagine how much time i sleep in a day??
some friends were sooo damn annoying n i really hate them!!! more then i hate the DM (dewan makan) food.. lol..haha.. shuu...(dun tell anyone).. they r kind of people that i, myself cannot describe.. soo annoying.. lyke 2 show off.. think that they r really great.. got this..got that.. got blablabla.. takling lyke they have thousands mouth!! err.. like i care bout their life anyway.. i have only 2 bezfwen there..one in my dome n 1 in class.. but there r 3 actually.. 1 oredy leavin.. in ma dome ofcoz da 1 that sleep bhind me (share 1 bed ectually) hehe.. NANA.. u r da one.. n in class is SYABIHAH aka cubby aka shabby.. luv u guyz soo much.. muah..muah..we have da same hobby..same interest..same future career n many more..
last 2 weeks we have the 'merentas desa' run.. joining da MILO program in Mount Kiara..soo damn tired.. i feel like running for 10 km although it is only 6.5 km.. lol.. it is just like a jungle treaking coz we run around da mountain..hahaha..lolololol... wake up early at 4am.. start da trip at around..err.. not really sure but maybe around 5.50am.. haah..
zzz
zzz
zzz
now i'm at home.. feel like in da moon.. whoo.. whee... ziiiiiizzzzgg... wif a big smile in ma face..
but another 7 days i'm going back 2 da earth...sobsobsob wif a big great dump..!!
goin back 2 seseri.. lol
sign off

life must go on..

2010-01-30T22:38:00.001-08:00

haih.. arini ari ahad 31.2.10
aq riindu sesgt kwn2.. baru 2 ari aq klua dari smkpj..lg 2 ari nk g asrama dah.. aq rindu mazrina..carmen..emy..fari.. n lg2 izatul..aq sayang diorg.. stiap kali aq nk tido, aq akn nangis bile pk ttg diorg.. aq pk cmne maz bile xde aq.. aq risau ade org nk papekn dye.. aq risau dye sunyi..
aq xle lupekn knangan 3pk1 yg dulu.. syg sesgt kt diorg..
dulu mase 3pk1 .. tu la kwn 2 aq..kwn2 yg ley tolng aq mase aq susah.. kwn2 yg ley wat aq gmbire bile sedih.. mase aq dpt rsult terok, diorg slalu ade utk tolng aq.. satu kls tu mcm 1 family.. walopn ade 3kaum berbeza, tp kitowg xpnh ade sempadan.. kitorg mmg rapat..
rase susah sgt nk lupekn.. mmg stiap prtmuan ade prpisahan.. tp terlalu sakit bile pk kan..
mase 3pk1 dulu ade 1 group yg mmg smtimes wat aq bengang..tp diorg sgt2 baik.. suke wat lwak bodo.. xde diorg kls tu xkn cerie.. klo korng ade kt kls tu tntu korng tau sape.. dye fakhrul,syarul n nazren.. diorg sntiase g memane sesame.. slalu kenekn org laen sesame.. slalu curi alat tulis aq..
yg laen cm razlin, syaz, n syida.. diorg mmg bez,, raz slalu tergelak2 bile org ckp psl dye.. dye pndai jage prasaan aq.. dye pnh tolng aq psl 1 bnde n aq xkn lupe.. mekaseh razlin..
aq rindu smue org.. diorg mmg periang.. group laen cm chua,leon,ruben,nick n nesh pon sgt bez.. diorg slalu bgaduh psl bnde remeh2.. tp skejp je diorg ley baek2 smule.. kalo bab plajaran, smue nk menang.. sntiase bersaing.. lol..
btol ckp sorng kwn aq.. kalo aq da pindah nnt aq xkn ade org lg nk kcau2 aq..or buli aq.. aq rindu korng.. dye ckp lg kalo aq blah skola u nnt xkn ade kwan yg gile2 cm syawal.. xkn ade masalah kipas rosak lg..xkn ade org yg nk memekak kt lua kls cm berok.. xde lg org nk nyanyi2 dgn suare yg xsedap.. xde lawak bodo..xde owg nk ejek aq azman lg.. xde org nk ckp aq chipsmore lg.. xde org nk ckp aq batman lg.. ARRGH!!! MISS U GUYZ SOO DAMN MUCH!!
tu mmg betol.. fiza rindu smue org.. fana da pindah SAB..hus pon same.. fari g teknik.. smue kwn fiza yg baik2 tinggalkn fiza.. maz pon da xde..
lps ni xde sape nk ckp fiza bodo lg,, xde org nk tampar2 fiza..xde org nk crite ttg lagu2 bez ngn fiza.. kalo dulu smue carmen yg buat bnde tu.. tp slarg.. smue da ilng.. smue dgn jln masing2..
kalo dulu mazrina slalu ade utk nangis sesame.. maz slalu crite ttg azri.. kalo tgk maz nangis,,smue nangis skaly.. kalo dulu 3pk1 kne marah ngn cikgu..slalu dgr suare ckgu misnah..skarg ni xlg.. rindu ckgu misnah.. rindu smue ckgu yg laen.. ckgu maizura..ckgu intan..ckgu zaleha.. n smue2 ckgu..
mase las skola yg akn wat fiza xkn lupekn diorg smue.. aq dah janji kt diri aq yg aq xkn nangis.. aq da janji.. tp aq xbole.. xbole tinggalkn kwn2.. lg mase diorg nyanyi lagu perpisahan.. air mate aq jatuh mcm hujan.. xboleh berhenti.. diorg btol2 wat aq sedih.. tp tu la saat yg aq mmg xley n xkn lupekn... saat air mate aq menitis terlalu banyak dpn2 kwn aq.. saat aq peluk kwn2 aq.. diorg kawan yg paling baik n xde pengganti.. 3pk1 2009 akn jd ingatan selame2 nye.. FIZA MISS U GUYS KENGKAWAN.. JGN LUEKN FIZA... SBB FIZA XKN LUPEKN KOWNG.. salam sayang

about this 2 month

2009-08-14T03:40:00.000-07:00

lame gler x update blog nie.. serius xde mase... busy ngn trial PMR.. exam2 lain n mcm2..
dahle dari pekse 1st tu asyik dpt 7a1b.. xpnh dpt 8a.. biase r yg b tu english..
huuh.. kt skola td mmh wat aku bengang.. syarul nazren n fakrus slalu wat hal.. lg2 si nazren tu..
slalu jew amik pnsil box aku.. bwak lari..botol air aku pon ilang.. uuuhhh.... sjak bile aku jd sasaran diorg dlm klas nie...??

td aku geram sgt ngn syarul sbb dye nk ejek aku.. aku komot kn krtas dye yg ckgu bg utk prtndingan lukis katun bnde tah...haha... klakar gile aku tgk muke syarul tyme tu.. hhhhaahahaahahha!!!!! then dye g ngedek kt razlin.. razlin juz pgang pipi dye je.. haha xdilayan.. n ade ag konflik yg pling teruk.. td dpt krtas bahagian due utk paper bi.. miss v bagi kertas exam lewat.. wktu tu tyme subjek seni, syarul tetibe bgtau yg vimal ckp ssuatu kt miss v sbb miss v tertengking dye sbb miss v tgh marak kt dak kls 3pk5... ksian vimal.. tp dye mmg xpatut ckp pkataan tu kt cikgu/....

hari tu g wedding ckgu maizura.. dah xde bnyak nk bgtau sbb dah ampir 3 or 4 minggu.. ingat tyme balik wed tu trus nk update.. tp mase dah xcukup.. almaklum aku nie busy n mls ciket... but congrats r kt cikgu maizura..

huu.. skarg nie aku btol2 xphm ngn dak laki 3 org yg duduk kt barisan tgh baris yg ke 4... FAKRUL.. SYARUL .. N NAZREN!!!... diorg tu mmg pelik sesangat but fakrul la yg paling ok... xpelik sgt cm syarul n nazren tu.. haaaishh... lg2 nazren r... ikotkn ati nie nak je aku lempang muke dye.. tp xleh sbb dye tu laki.. so aku ape ag.. sepak je r kaki dye.. xtau r sakit ke x.. kalo sakit ag aku suke.. hahahha jahat r aku nie.. hehe.. aku pk2 kn balik.. nk wat cmne kn dah diorg tu laki.. hakikat yg laki mmg xreti dok diam n aku xde marah sgt kt diorg sbb diorg tu kwan aku.. btol ckp diorg dulu.. aku xle doakn yg buruk2 kat dyeorg sbb kalo bnde tu jd aku yg akn mnysal sbb dah de sape yg nk wat lwak bodo kt kls.. nak nyanyi lgu nasyid n jiwang yg xbrape sdap tu.. hhehehe

mase karnival koko lak agaak boring r... xde pape yg bez selain makanan..mkanan.. n mkanan..
the n aku lepak r kt gerai azri n syami... bez r... tolng diorg meniage.. 1st tyme aku dpt tngok syami bcakap n bgurau gler cmtu.. dye slalu diam jew.. but at all dye la laki yg palink baik n normal kt kls tu,... hehe slain muhaimin..

ade ag crite yg lbih gempak!!! aku mule sdar ttg bnde nie sjak last 3 week... stiap kali aku tgk muke dye, jntung aku bdebar2 kuat gler.. aku risau kalo aku ske kt dak nie.. cume 1 org je tau psl nie n izatul r..sape ag.. aku tol2 takot kalo ake de ske kt sesape ag.. aku tanak ade ske sesape dlm idop aku.. serius aku tanak.. pengalaman lpas mengajaar aku supaye aku jd lbih matang.. dulu aku couple pon sbb nak try n rahsie yg teramat besar tu mase aku couple ngn dak nie... aku xpnh ade prasaan suke kt dye.. lps 3 minggu couple baru aku ade prasaan kt dye... n lps kite clash tu aku teros xske dye sangat mcm aku ske dye dulu.. tats y kali ke2 aku clash ngn dye aku xsdih sgt.. kali ke3 ag r.. hahha.. tp utk dak A nie aku xkn bgtau sesape.. bia atul sorng je tau...aku akn pastikn smpai abiz skola xkn ade yg tau.. walopn si A ni sndiri.. tp dulu mase fm1 dak A ni la yg aku paling xske sbb dye agk menakutkn... hahha.. skarg aku tau yg dye btol2 gentlement n baik.. n baik n baik n baik... walopn skarg dye xsame kls ngn aku.. aku n atul da prhatikn dak A nie.. lg1 dye mmg smart pkai unifom skola lengan pnjang.. izatul pon ade rahsie yg sgt besar n aku je taau.. pdn muke syawal tu.. hahha

k r ne off lu nk mkn mlm.. tkot kne marah.. hhehe
bye.. salam

mimpi ngeri

2009-04-26T23:45:00.000-07:00

td kat skool de suntikn utk kancing gigi...
wooo~~~ takot giler la... sape kate xsakit??~~ sakit giler.. dhle jarom tu pnjang sgt, nak pngsan aku tngok... pstu cikgu singham xbg bwak kwan masok bilik tuh.. lg tmbah takot aku..
huhu.. paling lawak tyme nurse yg nak suntik aku tu suroh aku dudok pastu aku lari g kat pintu sbb nk klua.. wawawa... seraam~~pastu tyme dye nak suntik tu aku pegang tangan dye.. lame je aku dlm bilik tuh.. ngengengokngek..
yg pelik tu.. smue org kate xsakit.. dak laki lg la.. semangat giler.. hebat lah diorg.. wengweweng.. aku kene ejek ngn kwn2 sbb takot jarom.. tp mmg hakikat yg aku takot jarom n lg2 darah.. leh pengsan aku tgk..huhu.. tyme subjek las nak balik..tetibe ganesha picit tngan aku..woow!!..sakit gilew..
tyme balik ade class tmbahan utk kh.. tp aku mls nak dtg.. so lari balik la ngn fana..hehe..
mak aku xde umah.. kne balik jln kaki.. syawal suro bwk basikal dye.. mereng je dak tuh.. huhu
then fana amek kunci basikal syawal.. smpai skarg xbg2 balik.. wohoho.. maybe dye tgh ngn atul kt skolah.. kcian dye.. xle bwk balik basikal.. hmm.. pape je lah.. esok fana bg balik lah tu..
off..

..ThE pErFeCt KiNgDoM..

2009-04-24T22:56:00.000-07:00

WeLcOmE To tHe sEyWeL kInGdOm..

The term 'The Worst Best Class' isnt alien to us students of 3pk1..nope, we get it all the time, actually! but I figure, there's nothing wrong with being memorable ( even if it is in a bad way! ) Anyway, there r many groups in our crazy class..

n we are always do crazy stuff such as
calling friend's name by using names of fathers and mothers as jokes..
haha.. we all get arumugams, dobby, kimball, soil, hussein, wong lo kat, logam n many more in our crazy class...

busy checking handfones!

what's sooo funny??!

peace to the world..

ruben, you r too small.. go away so that i can sit..

hehe

we are a ROCK couple..

hehe..

i'm a great teacher.. so listen to me..
hehe

when you look me in the eyes...

stupid meeting

say cheese...

we are great friends.. always helping each other..

hey syawal??!! go away.. u r soo smelly..!! hehe

there are some picture of ThE seYwEl KiNgDoM..

"In my class you get to see the true hardship and friendship, something that no other classes can have. When someone is in dire trouble we unite to help them in anyway.We never stay down and keep it to ourselves. That is the good part about our class. It is great. When you don't know something, we can be free to ask someone for assistance. That person is sure to help the other in our class.Yup, there is nowhere better than having friendship like ours in or class."

-ryan-

malaysian today

2009-04-16T03:45:00.000-07:00

BE MATURE ABOUT IT.. OR NOT..

it breaks your heart to see the one u love happy wif some1 else..
but it's more painful to kno that the one u luv is unhappy wif u..

seriously? i think that juz a load of cr*p actually. ok fine, being in a relationship where both parties are miserable is not a good thing but preferring him 2 be happy with some1 else? i think not!

you see, it's always portrayed that being the bigger person means being able to say that you're happy if he's happy, or that u want nothing but happiness for him, or u wish him all the best.. but how many of u really believe you're saying? unless you decided to stay friends, which is a rarity, odds are that u don't really want the best 4 him..!

we've all heard the saying, "hell hath no fury like a woman scorned" and even if u manage to keep all ur resentment in, u have 2 admit that seeing him miserable 4 the rest of his life would'nt b such a bad thing. well, until u find happiness at least!

when u break up with some1 n go your seperate ways, it is still interesting to keep track of some1 n what they're up 2. and much as we don't like 2 admit it, there is a little competition going on it. who is doing better? who has moved on faster? who has started dating first? who is enjoing life more? it all adds up and whoever says that they're not keeping score is lying!

but let's go back to the phrase above. i've asked around n a lot of girls have admited that they would'nt really rather see his ex happy with some1 else. it dosen't mean that they still have feelings for the guy; sometimes it all just boils down to pride and ego. questions like 'why he is happy with her and not with me?' or 'WHAT DOES SHE HAVE THAT I DON'T?' or even just the very honest 'WHY SHOULD HE BE HAPPY?' arise whenever an ex finds someone new.

we all know that the mature thing to do would be 2 wish the other person well and just move on with ur life. unfortunately, that's not such an easy thing 2 do. MUCH AS WE HATE 2 ADMIT IT, HOPING THE OTHER PRSON IS UNHAPPY IS MUCH CLOSER 2 THE TRUTH. after all, what is more ego-boosting than knowing that the person is just miserable without u? of course, there are exceptions 2 the case; for example, if u broke it off bcoz you've met some1 new or your relationship has just run its course and u mutually decide 2 part ways.

the thing is, we're not trying to b mean. part of us actually means it when we say the nice things and maybe a part of us does want him 2 eventually find happiness... juz not be4 we do! in the meantime, we say that we're expected 2 say (and try to mean it) and we carry on. and hopefully, we give the impression of being mature!

11 april 09

2009-04-11T05:47:00.000-07:00

program star

huh.. pg td g program star..
punye r boring.. xtau ape yg dye nye main point...
pstu dak2 kat citu buknnye nk sgt blaja... g sbb tpakse or nk main2..??
xhormat lnsung.. ade r sorng mamat nie yg dok dpn aku.. dye siap bace komik ag kat citu..
pncramh tgk pn wat xtau.. hmm.. pastu balik lmbt sbb mak aku lupe..
atul fana n munirah join skali.. nseb bek ade kwn.. hehe..

tusyen

huahua.. balik program star kol 2 lbeh smpai umah..
penat giler.. pas mndi ingt nk wat kje skola yg btimbon2 tuh.. bukak buku je tros tetido..
ngehehe.. abiz r mlm nie baru nk wat nota sejarah.. err..
bangon2 kol 3.45 da tlmbt nk g tusyen... pastu ingt kne g jln kaki sbb mak aku g mlawat adek aku kt asrama.. fuuueeh~~ nseb bek ade fana.. g tusyen tompng mak dye..
xde r pnat sgt.. n maths pn da msok bab baru kt tusyen.. agak snang r chapter nie.. algebraic 3..
mmg xmereng kali nie sbb xde INDICES.. hoho...

crite fana kt tusyen..

adoyai.. part nie yg xle blah...
mak aku tnye fana mcm2 r ttg ....... aku kt skool tuh..
. nseb bek fana n atul tau simpn rhsie...
ade mak aku ckp aku da brubah.. diam2 je?? stress?? ie ke?? aku xtau r..
same je kowt.. or maybe betol... apsal ngn aku nieh?? aku ok la.. no problem!! nothing...
n nseb bek fana xbgtau ttg ........ kt mak aku... n aku rase mak aku pn da tau la ttg tu kalo aku n kekwan xbgtau pon.. aku OK... aku OK...!! NOTHING... xde pape..
pastu mak aku tanye2 aku... 'yg pnting studi ok. tu je mama nk tau.. btol tanak bgtau mama??'
.. mak aku ckp cmtuh.. err..

kat MPH jj

huuh!! pas balik tusyen tros g MPH sbb nk bli hadiah bufday aku..
then aku tjumpe buku 'ps i love you' tuh... mmg aku nk giler buku tuh.. skarg aku da ade ampir smue collection novel cecelia ahern tuh..
1- ps i love you
2-where rainbows end
3- if you could see me now
4-a place called here

yg lg 2 aku xde.. tgh nak carik.. huhu..
nseb bek dad bg beli buku tuh.. huahaha.. penat memujuk.. tu abg aku nye psl r.. dye g bg gf dye kt asrama dulu tu pinjam .. tgk da ilng.. tp xpe r da dpt yg baru..
hehe...
ade sestgh part dlm buku tu bile bace mmg sedih gile r.. nak nangis bace ayat dye..
nak tau?? jup2 aku carik page brape...

page 140

"ps. i love you holly, and i know you love me. you don't need my belongings
to remember me by, you don't need to keep them as proof that i existed
or still exist in your mind. you don't need to wear my sweater to feel me around
you; i'm already here... always wrapping my arms around you"

wae!! ~~ sweet giler la ayat tuh... but ade ag...

page 468

"don't be afraid to fall in love again. open your heart
and follow where it leads you....
and remember, shoot for the moon...
ps. i will always love you..."

cair aku bace.. T_T...
oopss!! aku kne sign off sbb nk wat kje sejarah.. uhuhu.. out luh.. ZZzZZZzzzz...
thats all 4 today..

7 april 2009

2009-04-07T00:15:00.000-07:00

7 APRIL 2009...

wawawa... dtg2 skool je smue wish aku HAPPY BIRTHDAY fiza...
hehe... terharu.. satu kelas nyanyi lagu utk aku..
n thnx kat smue.. lg2 org yg 1st wish aku.. iaitu emellia then izatul..
mazrina n fari... oops ade ag .. carmen n smue kwn2 kls aku tmasok kls laen yg join..
hehe... ha..~~ cikgu misnah.. thnx2 sesgt sbb wish sye... ily cikgu.. n cikgu2 laen gak yg wish..
haha.. td dpt hadiah yg paling bharge dari ruben.. walopn xbrape bharge..
hadiahnye.. dye kene diam n tutup mulut dye bile ckgu tgh mngajar.. tiap2 ari memekak..
pening dgr.. hehe,... bgoz2...
farah!! thnx gak eh.. xsngke aku dah tue.. 50 thn ko kate..
xpe2... hehe... aku mude ag r..
ina!! thnx gak.. gud luck PMR gak.. 8A k?? hehe... ahha.. ade sorng ag... syawal..
sori sbb palau mase ko wish aku.. hehe.. sbb dlm lab tu bising so.. xdgr la... but thnx2...
hhahaaa.. mama ku n dad... ily soo much sbb wish n bg hadiah yg bgoz2.. hehe
ahh!! ng chuan san??!!.. ko wish aku happy dead day?? ko nak aku mati?? xpe2.. hehe..
tgk ko nnt..

BTW smue... thnx sesgt sbb wish k...
ilysm..

stupid question

2009-04-04T06:16:00.000-07:00

-HEART BREAK -

have you got ur heart broke
- yeah

did u feel like u hate them, but still loved them afterwards
- err... yup

u still think about them everyday
-secret..

wish u were still with them
-not really..

wander if they still love u
-no!

feel like its ur fault for not being together
-wat?? me?? ofcoz not!

do u get depressed when u think about them
-everytime

do u cry when u think about them
-sometimes..

do u usually think of good or bad memories
-of coz la good..

wats ur most missed memory about them
- y do u wanna kno?

how long were u together with the person
- not important to remember..

did it feel like ur heart got ripped out when u broke up
-yeap..

did ur troat get tight and u could breath
-i still can breath.. i'm still alive wat?

did u cry urself to sleep
-not everytime..

how many nights
-a lot..

how many nights of sleep did u miss thinking of them, if any
-every night.. maybe..

are u trying to move on
-of coz yeah...

think u wont ever find love again
- depends..

have u already moved on
-yeap2..

was he/she ur first love
- yea..

if u had the same freinds, did any freindships end cuz of the break up
-no!!

how many times have u had ur heart break
- err.. so many times...

-REALLY PERSONAL -

ok be honest, did u ever cut urself becuz u were depressed
-hell no..! i luv myself..

ever tried to commit suicide cuz of the break up
- stupid??!! i still wanna live..

are u still depressed, if u were depressed when u broke up
-its my problem.. who r u wanna kno?

does he/she have another gf/bf yet
- dont kno.. n maybe yes!!

do u think u'll get back together with them
- i dont think so...

can u forgive the one who broke ur heart
- i should think 100 times before do that..

exaclty, what was the reason they broke ur heart
- forget oledy..

ever think of wat it would be like if u guys would still be together
-maybe i'm not gonna cry everyday.. alwayz laughing n happy.. but i'm happy now wat?? heeah..

ever missed school cuz u didnt want to see there face
-always see his face at school!!

do u still talk to them often, or at least some times
-nooooooooo~~!

are u still freinds
-maybe..

do u still love them?
-cannot tell..

ever wrote depressing poetry for the person
-a lot..!!

do you want him/her to say "i love you"?
- maybe not cuz i dont want to break my lovely heart again.. hehe..

kawan

2009-03-20T23:46:00.000-07:00

kata mak, KAWAN tu ibarat lebah,
habis madu sepah dibuang.......
kata abah, KAWAN tu umpama bunga ros,
dipandang cantik dipegang sakit.....
kata atuk, KAWAN tu seperti air terus mengalir.....
kata nenek, KAWAN tu bak bulan
dipuja dan disanjung tp nun jauh di sana....
kate sedare, kawan tu mcm makanan,
kawan makan kawan!!
kata abang, KAWAN tu seperti lembu mengikut saje ape dikata........
kata kakak, KAWAN tu tak ubah macam durian
bau je busuk tp sedap dimakan....
kata adik, KAWAN tu macam biskut
sekejap ade sekejap takde.......

kata aku, kawan tu tak kisahlah camner..
walaupun dia IBARAT LEBAH,
UMPAMA BUNGA ROS,
SEPERTI AIR, BAK BULAN,
SEPERTI LEMBU,
TAK UBAH MACAM DURIAN
& MACAM BISKUT!!!
dia tetap kawan...
tau tak sebab ape???
sekali aku dah kawan ngan dia selamanye dia ttp kawan aku...
itu cara aku berkawan..!!

business

2009-03-20T02:31:00.000-07:00

STUDY is my business..
To SUCCEED in business :
1 - Be there..
2 - Pay attention
3 - Do your work !
4 - Do your work !
5 - Do your work !

"I pLaN mY wOrK aNd i WoRk My PlAn.. "

B - believe / begin
E - enthusiastic

S - specific / scripted
M - measurable
A - attainable
R - reason
T - time

" To SuCcEeD, Do WhAt YoU hAvE tO dO.. dO iT wHeN iT oUgHt To bE dOnE.. dO It WhEtHeR yOu lIkE iT Or NoT. mAkE yOuRsElF dO It.. "

" UnTuK BeRjAyA, sAyA lAkUkAn ApA YaNg MeStI SaYa lAkUkAn.. sAyA LaKuKaNnYa KeTiKa Ia pAtUt DiLaKuKaN.. SaYa LaKuKaN SaMa aDa SaYa SuKa aTaUpUn TiDaK.. sAyA pAkSa dIrI sAyA uNtUk mElAkUkAnNyA.. "

untuk berjaya saya mesti :
- mahu berjaya
- tahu cara
- mulakan

bila saya mulakan saya.. :
- tingkatkan standard saya
- buang fikiran penghalang
- ubah strategi

pesanan al-ghazali :
- tengok muka cikgu
- gambarkan
- jangan ganggu orang lain
- jawab soalan cikgu

pape je lah.. :-p

2009-03-05T02:16:00.000-08:00

once apon a time..
something happened to me...
it was the sweetest thing
that ever could be...
a fantasy..
a dreem come true!
it was the day I met you..

2morrow exam..

huhu...

bace2.. aku jmpe ayt yg dikrng oleh kwn aku..(arif syaqim)

2009-03-05T02:08:00.000-08:00

.. Ade pepatah inggeris mengatakn yg cinta sebagai bunga mawar dlm
sebuah taman yg luas,biarpun hanya sekuntum,mawar itu memberikn
seri kepada seluruh taman...tapi cinta bkn sekadar perkasihan teruna dara,
tetapi cinta dalam kehidupan sejagat ialah paksi keamanan dan kedamaian...
mmg susah untuk org yg x phm erti cinta sejati menjaga erti cinta itu sendiri...
npe org becinta untk puas kn nafsu???ingt la yg allah itu maha adil...
kte spttnye kne jge org yg kte sayangi n cintai itu dgn sebaik mgkn...
bkn merosak kn dia...cbe byg kn ank kamu berada di situasi itu???
ape perasaan kamu???msti kamu phm mksd ayt ini??hargai lah org yg
kte sygi n org yg menyayangi kte..walau ssh mcm ane pun ksh pecintaan itu
sabar je bnyk2...ini untuk menunjukkn betapa sukar nye untuk kita fahami erti
cinta yg sejati...cinta yg wat setiap pasangan ingin...bg aq pekataan "clash" x pnh
muncul dlm kamus pecintaan aq...aq bkn jnis yg ske mainkn perasaan kaum
hawa...walau sukar mcm ane pon nk memperthnkn sesebuah hubungan itu kte perlu sabar....dlm bcnta bnyk suka dan duka..mengapa mse kte becinta ngan si dia bnyk
dugaanya??? tu la yg wat kte phm erti cnta..cnta yg sejati susah utk kte cari..ade laki
yg slh kn popuan dlm cnta,ade juga popuan yg slh kn laki dlm cnta..bg aq 2-2 sme..bg laki/popuan yg becinta bkn bepaksikn cnta sejati mereka hnye akn memainkn pasangan mereka..x kre ar laki ke popuan ke sme je..ade yg becnta hnye untk kepentingan,nafsu,dimainkn,ade untk bls dendam,ade yg untk cari pengalaman
n mcm ag...bg mereka yg yg becnta x bepaksikn cnta sejati mereka mempunyai
agenda mereka sendiri..bg laki knape bnyk laki zaman skng nie nilai popuan hnye
pade bdn??bkn pade hati n perasaan???tp bkn semua laki mcm 2...bg laki yg sepeti
ini knpe mereka lyn nafsu mereka???bkn ke sesudh kwin kte akn dpt gak...

slipped away ?? ^_^

2009-01-22T06:25:00.001-08:00

I cried today...
not because I missed you or even wanted you
but because I finally realized
I'm going to be alright without you

A break up is like a broken mirror.
It is better to leave it broken than hurt yourself trying to fix it.

I can't escape the thought of you.
Even in my dreams you are there.
It's not fair how your gone,
and how you're moving on so fast,
while I am still living in the past.

Breaking up is not a stupid thing;
instead it makes you a better person
and realize your mistakes.

I don't know what to do now that we're apart;
I don't know how to live without the other half of my heart.

My biggerst fear is that one day we will pass each other
on the streets and have an artifical conversation.

Now that I have loved so purely and deeply,
I have realized how lonely I really am.

Some people think that it's holding on that makes one strong;
sometimes it's letting go.

You have to forgive to forget,
and forget, to feel again.

If your love does not work with that person,
it just means that someone else loves you more.

If you can't save the relationship,
at least save your pride.

hrtbrkn

2009-01-21T07:49:00.000-08:00

semue bnde dlm pc aku da ilang.. aku tpekse install anti virus yg baru sbb pc aku da lembap giler..!!
bnyak keje2 aku dlm nie da xd! ahaha.. but its ok now hehe pc aku da laju semule..
cuti raye cine bnyak keje.. sejarah nota betimbun2, kene wat tiga karangan bahase melayu.. n mcm2 ag..
skarg aku da start g tuisyen lame aku.. xsangke jumpe kwn2 lame kat citu.. haha.. sunyi sepi sbb plaja dye xramai n senang nak focus..
uuh... takot nk g skool esok.. nape?? aku pn xtau nape.. haha.. ntah la.. pastu xpasal2 kene jage kat blok 'jasa' .. blok yg sangat2 boring n sunyi.. haha dulu kene jage kantin.. same je terok.. plaja makan xreti buang sampah.. ape??! ingat org kat kantin tu org gaji diorng kew??! haah??!! dah besar2 panjang pn still xtaw adap makan.. budak2 kecik pn pandai buang sampah.. malu la sikit..!
but asal nie... aku takot nk g skool esok.. xtau nape.. myb sbb keje skool xsiap? takot cikgu? or.. takot dgn budak dok blakng aku?? or... ntah la...
xsdap ati r.. dahle carik info ttg chapter2 'heroes near n far' tu xdapat ag.. dulu kene carik person admire.. skarng pn same.. susah betol..!!
emm...... emm... emm... ............... lg1, i'm sorrrrrri......!! fogiv me.. nape diorng xle faham aku? asl diorg suke2 je nak marah.. bile aku yg marah, xpnh ade yg pk.. diorg xpnh tau nape aku wat cmtu, n xpnh nak try tanye nape..? tau2 nk marah je.. aku wat smue ade sbb.. aku xbniat pn nk sakitkn ati die.. tp ade ke dye tanye aku nape?? xpenah.... dye xpnh tanye nape aku wat cmtu kat dye.. ... sbb dye xphm aku..... aku s_y_ng sangat kat dye.. dye je xpnh tau..

sinus

2009-01-07T06:06:00.000-08:00

gejala selsema seperti hidung tersumbat, sakit pada pipi serta kekerapan bersin terutama pada waktu pagi mmg merimaskan. lbih xslesa apabila muka terasa gatal seperti ada bende merayap. rasa kurng selesa smakin btambah bile dlm tekak dpenuhi dgn kahak. jika anda mempunyai simptom seperti itu ia menandakan anda mungkin mengalami masalah sinusitis. Sinusitis ialah keradangan pada lapisan mambran dalam mana2 ruang sinus. sinusitif juga membuatkan kita menjadi sangat sensitif terhadap ape2 yg boleh menyebabkan alahan, termasuk perubahan cuaca(sejuk), pencemaran alam sekitar dan jangkitan bakteria..
pada tulang tengkorak kita ada beberapa lubang berisi udara dan diselaputi mukus serta membuka kedalam kaviti (ruang) hidung. ruang ini dipanggil sinus. sinus ialah masalah yg sangat lazim di seluruh dunia. jika dibuat imbasan pada 10 org normal, 80% didapati akan mengalami masalah sinusitis ringan yg tidak perlu apa2 rawatan. antara punca sinus adalah jangkitan bakteria dan dianggarkan 85% kes sinusitis berpunca daripada selsema biasa yg tidak dirawat dan berlanjutan lama. ini bmakne seseorang individu itu mengalami jangkitan bakteria skunder yg berlaku ketika selsema..
selain itu, ia juga berpunca akibat daripada perubahan cuaca sejuk, jangkitan fungus, masalah sistem imun seperti yg dialami penghidap HIV dan pesakit kanser yg menjalani rwatan kemoterapi. tidak kurng juga jangkitan pada gigi disamping jangkitan yg berlaku ketika berenang atau menyelam dalam air yg tercemar dan masuk ke ruang sinus. mereka yg mempunyai asma, mengalami ketumbuhan (polip) dalam hidung, alahan pd habuk dan debunga dan ada masalah yg membabitkan aliran mukus (lendir) dalam sistem pernafasan sperti sista fibrosis adalah lebih mudah menghidap sinus.
Jika keradangan sinus tidak mendatangkan masalah, anda tidak perlu mndapatkn rawatan. ramai orang ada dalam kategori ini. bgaimanapun, jika sinusitis ini mula menyebabkan gangguan pada kesihatan seperti demam, sakit kepala dan leher, muka sakit dan bengkak, anda disaran berjumpa doktor. jika didapati sinusitis anda teruk, usah biarkan ia berlanjutan kerana melengahkan rawatan boleh menyebabkan masalah anda bertambah buruk. jangkitan bakteria perlu dihapuskan kerana ia boleh memasuki aliran darah dan mengakibatkan keracunan menyebabkan seluruh badan terasa sakit..
didapati daripada- berita harian Sabtu 3 januari 2009
saje2 je tulis balik sbb nk share dgn smue org.. n aku pn ade pnyakit sinus nie tp xar serious mane.. hehe..

slipped away

2009-01-03T19:12:00.000-08:00

this song is dedicated to my little cutie hamster..
its DEAD.. haha.. T_T..

Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh

Na na na na na na na

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't

Oooooh
I hope you can hear me cause I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh

I had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by

Now you are gone, now you are gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now you are gone, now you are gone
There you go, there you go,
Somewhere your not coming back

The day you slipped away
Was the day i found it won't be the same noo..
The day you slipped away
Was the day that i found it won't be the same oooh...

Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you

avril lavigne
Under My Skin (2004)
'slipped away'

back to school

2008-12-30T06:03:00.000-08:00

ahha..!!
-i'm currently cut my hair n ready to go back to school....!!
-open my new book in 2009..
-meet all my fwen (miss u all)
-start to do many2 homeworks!!
-n the most important is, i must keep my eyes n mind on MATHS subject..
haha....
n mayb I thought i'm not gonna update my blog for a long time..
sorry for that..

susahnye kalo kene TAG!!

2008-12-24T09:25:00.000-08:00

Rules ; Sesiapa yang kena tag, kena tulis 10 sesuatu berkenaan orang yang meng'tag' dia.

ashura izwani:

1-suke change mood
2-suke makan coklat
3-suke melukis
4-panas baran(maybe)
5-agak emo
5-org yg suke merepek yg berlebihan smpai pening nk dgr
6-terlalu minat bace komik n minat anime
7-setie kawan
8-sangat comel cm spongebob aku!!
9-suke crite masalah n dgr masalah
10-happy go lucky n teramaat peramah...

Orang yang kena tag kena tulis 10 perkara sesuatu pasal diri mereka

1-suke mnyusahkn orang
2-kuat menangis n merajok
3-suke mengelamun dlm kelas
4-xsuke org yg hipokrit!! n minah2 gedix kat skool
5-minat giler2 kat rob.pattinson n MCR
6-suke bace novel n buku skool tp xsuke wat keje skool
7-benci subjek maths!!
8-xsuke tengok crite hantu n ade unsur2 seram
9-senang maafkn org laen (maybe)
10-dah r tuh..banyak sangat syaratnye!!

*At the end you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.

1-ashura
2-azri
3-farah amalina
4-anyone yg nk bemurah ati nk tag.....

hamster baru..

2008-12-24T07:27:00.000-08:00

yeeyh...

td kebtulan mase mak aku ajak tman dye g amek abg aku kat Sepang then aku dapat seekor lg hamster sbb kite singgah GREAT EASTERN...hamster kat great eastern tu mmg lawa2 belake... but hamster nie laen ciket, dye lg comel n bulu dye lebat giler cm kucing parsi.. ngehehe....... n bukn tu jer, aku dapat seekor lg kure2 n 2ekor ikan emas... semue comel2...

pastu mase kat great eastern mak aku siap beli sikat, syampoo n vitamin utk hmster aku.. bez gler.. tp yg paling bes aku dapat sangkat hamster baru yg lebeh besar... so nnt hamster aku xya r nk berempit2 dalam tuh..

aduh... aku n family aku xjd nk g endon sbb flight delay..!!! bengang jer... tpakse g thn dpan mase cuti buln2... sobsob.. tp yg penting thn dpan dpat g dgn kazen2 aku n nenek sekali..

dsebabkn xjd nk g endon bapak aku bawak kitorg g bukit merah n penang jew...

ngahaha...
k r singing off for today sbb nk tngok crite da phantom of the opera n btw thnx ruben sbb suroh aku tngok crite nie..

emmm

2008-12-23T21:51:00.002-08:00

ye r ash aku update blog aku!!
msalh nye xtaw nk share ttg pe..
any idea?? (yes plz.!!)..... emmmmm... emm... emm... adoyai, xd idea r.. dhle smlm da borak smpai kol 3lbeh pastu fon ter OFF sbb bateri abiz.. ngahaha... sori au ash.. hehe
tp mmg aku ngantok gler r ari nie sbb tido lmbat.. xslalu au aku tido lmbat cmtuh.. lolz
ahha, ! ari slase tu aku spaputnye g sunway lagoon tp xjd... uuh..~~
smlm aku g ikot mak aku shopping kat parkson n jusco.. ngahaha dari kol2lbeh smpai kol 7lbeh x abiz2.. pastu kene solat kat suraw situ.. koto gilew tlekong dye..aii,, tpakse aku gune gak..
tp xpe r.. yg bez tu aku dpat ape yg aku nk..!! lolz.. aku dpat sweater, 2jeans n 3t-shirt.. ngehehe(balasn abb aku tman mak aku shopping)lolz..

ahh..!! yg penting mak aku tetibe je bermurah ati nk blanje bag skool 'body glove' kat aq..
sape xnk?? haha eh..!! body glove tgh sale r.. korng g r borong bnyak2...
ah, xsabar2 nk tunggu esok..hehehe nk g jln2 jaoh nie.. so aku kene off sbb nk pack barng2 yg kene d'bawak takot ade yg ttingal..n kwn2 aku, aku pasti akn bwak ssuatu utk korung nnt..
singing off.. slm

ayat2 indah

2008-12-20T01:28:00.000-08:00

Barangsiapa yang mengamalkan tujuh kalimah ini akan dimuliakan oleh Allah S.W.T. dan malaikat dan akan diampuni dosa-dosanya walau sebanyak buih di lautan…

1.bismillahhirrahmannirrahim: pada tiap-tiap hendak melakukan sesuatu.

2.alhamdulillah: pada tiap-tiap habis melakukan sesuatu.

3.astagfirrullah: jika tersilap mengatakan sesuatu yang buruk.

4.insyaallah: jika ingin muelakukan sesuatu pada masa akan datang.

5.lahaulawalaquataillahbillah: bila tidak dapat melakukan sesuatu yang agak berat atau melihat sesuatu yang buruk.

6.innalillah: jika menghadapi musibah atau melihat kematian.

7.laailaahaillallah: bacalah sepanjang siang dan malam sebanyak-banyaknya. amalkanlah selalu moga-moga kita tergolong di kalangan orang yang terpilih oleh Allah

robert pattinson

2008-12-10T22:08:00.000-08:00

the hottest guy in da world..!! named ROBERT PATTINSON a.k.a Edward cullen a.k.a Cedric diggory

name : robert thomas-pattinson

d.o.b : 13 may 1986 (age22)

London England

occupation : actor, model

BIOGRAPHY

Early life
Pattinson was born in London, England. His mother, Clare, worked for a modeling agency, and his father, Richard, imported vintage cars from the U.S.[1] He became involved in amateur theatre through the Barnes Theatre Company. After some backstage experience there, he took on acting roles. He caught the attention of an acting agent in a production of Tess of the D'Urbervilles, and began looking for professional roles. Since then he has performed in an amateur version of Macbeth at the Old Sorting Office Arts Centre, as well as trying his hand at modeling.

Career
He had supporting roles in the made for television film Ring of the Nibelungs in 2004, and in director Mira Nair’s Vanity Fair, although his scenes in the latter were deleted, and only appear on the DVD version. In May 2005 he was slated to appear in the UK premiere of The Woman Before at the Royal Court Theatre, but was fired shortly before the opening night and was replaced by Tom Riley.
Later that year he played Cedric Diggory in the film Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. Consequently, he was named that year's British Star of Tomorrow by Times Online.[2] He also has more than once been touted as the next Jude Law.[3][4][5]
Pattinson appeared in the advertising campaign for Hackett's Autumn 2007 collection. Pattinson plays Edward Cullen in the movie Twilight, based on Stephenie Meyer's bestselling novel of the same name, which was released on November 21, 2008 in North America. According to TV Guide, Pattinson was initially apprehensive about auditioning for the role of Edward Cullen, fearful that he wouldn’t be able to live up to the “perfection” expected from the character.[6]
He has lead roles in the the forthcoming feature films Little Ashes, in which he plays Salvador Dalí, How To Be, a British comedy, and the short film The Summerhouse. In January he will begin filming a project called Parts Per Billion,[7] which he calls "one of the most lyrical scripts that I have ever read in my life".[8] (wikipedia)

edward cullen n watak2 laen dlm crite twilight..

2008-12-09T07:12:00.001-08:00

raye aji..

2008-12-09T06:46:00.000-08:00

mase raje haji xd pape yg bez sngat.. dhle xdpat tengok lmbu korban sbb kat puchong hujan.. then aunti2 aku suro dok umah nenek jer..

pastu petang aku xikot family aku balik kmpung, juz dudok umah dgn kazen2 n nenek..

haah..petang tu boring gler.. then aunti mazuin aku ajak g IOI tngok wayang.. tyme tu belilah popcorn dulu, takot lapar le..lolz ..nk tunggu iklan dye abiz amek mase smpai 10 min, belom smpat crite start popcorn da abiz..wahaha due kotak lak tuh..lagi 1kotak jatoh atas kerusi..biase r kazen aku yg wat..(ina n faza, aku kutok korung) lol

kitorng tngok crite 'TWILIGHT' .. wahaha.. crite tu mmg bez, dhle hero dye tu cute giler.. btw, name dye edward cullen.. ahhh.... cair aku tngok dye.. dahle mate n mulot dye mengancam..lolz over la..wakaka... tp mmg btol la, bibir dye pink cam bibir pompuan.. part yg paling bez mase dye nk slamatkn pompuan yg dye minat tuh.. mmg romantik gler la..

final exam..

2008-11-18T17:04:00.000-08:00

dah 2 minggu exam berlalu.. baru aku ade mood nk tulis ttg nie..
bole dkatekn exam tu xd r semudah yg aku sangke.. yg paleng terok tu, aku mngharapkan utk dpat 8A.. tu target aku.. tp ape le buat english aku dpat B!! sux!! xpe r..bukn makne skali gagal tuh le gagal slamenye kan? tol x? of coz la btol kan...lolz.. tp aku rase sangat2 la puas ati dgn result aku nieh sbb aku btol2 tau klemahan aku yg sendiri..aku jwab soaln exam tanpe meniru langsong.. even sometimes aku tenampak jwapan budak kecik yg dudok dpan aku tuh aku buat2 xnmpak haha..n budah tu ialah nicholas!!

foget to say, aku dpat kalahkan nicholas lah dlm kls.. xcaye kn..aku pn same..haahaha.. hmm, markah sejarah aku spatutnye dpat 85 tp teacher salah tarok jd 77!! bnyak tol bezenye..!! bile aku ckp balek kat teacher aku, dye kate dye dah mls nk tukat sbb result tu dah anta kat pngetue utk dtandetngan.. geram je aku dgr.. kalo teacher x tersalah tarok tesult aku tuh dah tentu aku dpt kalahkn si nareen yg blagak tuh..! mntang2 r dye dpat top10 dlm kls..err..!

mase dpt result tuh aku tngok bnyak sangat reaksi muke kwn2 aku.. ade yg sedih n ade yg over excited!! n of coz la yg over excited tuh budak2 yg otak diorg tu mmg la gelige sesangat.. but xsmue yg over excited tu ..i mean yg dpat markah yg tinggi tu buknnye dgn usaha diorg sndiri..
bole dikatekn 90% budak kls aku mniru dlm exam diorg tuh.. ade sorang dak dlm kls aku nie xpuas ati dgn kwn2 dye yg dpt result2 yg tinggi2 juz bcoz kwn dye mniru.. ape lah..pastu nk msam2 muke lak dgn kwn2 dye... pikiran cetek betol.. kalo da taw kwn2 dye smue akn meniru, so jadi r cerdik ciket.. jadikn tu smue sbagai salah satu cabaran utk usaha dgn lebih kuat ag.. lg satu, dye smpai nk jumpe cikgu nk bg taw yg kwn2 dye mniru.. patotnye dye kene r sedar ciket..dye dpat result cmtuh pon sbb dye yg xwat preparation awl2.. pastu mlm nk exam baru lah nak sntuh buku diorg yg dah berhabok dlm laci diorg..ish2 then sanggup tidor smpai kol 2 ke 3 pagi sbb nk bace buku..

ade tu lg lah..mase nk amek exam le menangis sbb xhfal formule maths..ish3 mcm2 ragam r kwn2 aku nieh..actually aku pn ade gak yg xhfal formule..lolz tp xd samai nk nangis2..n lg satu ! buat first time dlm form2 aku bjaye siapkn karangan BM dlm mase yg ditetapkan..hahaha slalunye mmg xsempat..alhamdulillah.. lege sikit tp tangan pon lengoh sngat2 cm nak tcabut..
ape2 pon exam dah abez..n happy r siket.. tp thn dpan ade exam yg lbeh penting iaitu PMR!! arrghhhh..takotnye... aku takot xle dpat ape yg aku nak je... tp aku akn wat tol2!! insyaallah
signing off ..

fall for you

2008-11-17T07:35:00.000-08:00

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core
But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find
This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Oh
But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for youOver again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another dayI swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

album: a twist in my story (2008)

soul depression

2008-11-14T17:47:00.000-08:00

life is full of trouble...
full of sickness...
full of pain...
full of joy...
but we only have change to live...
one change to laugh..
one change to cry...
and one change to love someone...
but the change we destroyed by a creature named a 'MAN' ...
but i'm still standing here waiting for him but...
i didn't know is my waiting is valuewable for him...
i'm sick waiting for him...
to built my life happy again like the old time we had together...
i miss the old him..miss old him so much.....
i am very tired suffering from this trouble..
but no matter how far i ran from it, the more it backfires me..
truth does hurt...
but it never lies...
i know it no use waiting for him...
but i still waiting...Why??...
If one day,
he come back and...want to be with me...
it'll take thousand times for me to think 'bout it'
why?? coz i want him...
to suffer as what i was suffering before...
nothing hurt more, than realising..
he meant everything to me..but,
i meant nothing to him....
behind the good looks,
he is the most evil person i ever known...
ps: old story!!...but i'm ok with him now..he is the best guy i ever know!!

family in 2rk class(2008)

2008-10-21T08:09:00.000-07:00

The term 'The Worst Best Class' isnt alien to us students of 2RK..nope, we get it all the time, actually! but I figure, there's nothing wrong with being memorable ( even if it is in a bad way! ) Anyway, since this-emm...?-essay about 2RK, I suppose we should start with the most important aspect of the class..THE STUDENTS (insect blood-curdling scream here)!

Firstly, there's our class monitor(lizard!)..Nicholas Lim( Hon Ning) or Nicky for short, essentially short..! But he's also responsible, smart, cute and in Mazrina's opinion, a Shin Chan look-alike... But still short (love you Nicky!)...Next, we have his also little assistant, Nur Izzatul Balqish..she's smart, pretty, sweet, demure, innocent..okay, let's cut this crap! She is vicious! But still smart and pretty (down, boys..she's unavailable)..!

Okay, after those two, we got all the other students..lets just dump them into groups! we got Black Mican's crew, consisting of Azri(rentap!), vimal(dobi!), Nazren(putar!/Roy!), Syarul(pudding!) and Fakhrul(choki-choki!)... they're noisy, quite (very!) annoying sometimes but still good boys at heart (even through they can REALLY test your patience)

Other then them, there's Chua's football/politic frantic club..Mainly there's Chua(duh! Soi...!/kimball), Nicky(tikus!), Leon(Wong lo..), Ganesha/Nesh logan(singapore!), Ruban(aru!/peri-peri!), Ng Chuan San(lunatic!) ~occasionally, Black Mican's crew join them..There are also times when all the boys would get together (I guess they talk about BOY STUFF-you don't wanna know!!)... Those rare(thank God) times include Muhaimin(azman!),Ameer(bawang), Syahmi(occasionatelly)..emm..talk about Shahmi..he is the sweetest guy in this class..or I can say the BEST guy in our school!! he always talk to his friends by using (saya/awak)include me!!..so sweet..i think no other guys will say like that to their friends by using that word(except to their girlfriend!!)err.. he just like a Prince Charming in our class..!!

Anyway, we have now finished with the (clueless) 2RK boys.. Now, let's get on to the better gender( you can totally tell a girl wrote this..) The ladies(applause,please)!! But first, I would like to establish the fact that women are incredible!! We can smarter, stronger..more wilful so you (so-called) men can't push us down! pheew..Now that that's out of the way, i'll talk about the amazing (but crazy) girls of 2RK..

first up, we have Carmen aka gagak!, loke aka keimek, hui si aka ginger, shallu(meoow), jayapreeya..err don't know what to say..!, izzatul gangster, farhana aka princess/bendi, husnina(hassshim!), fari aka fauzan, aida aka sahlan, razlin..err, Christ Brown's girlfriend's wannable!, me..? xya taw la.., athirah the belly dancer!, aina and kow pik yoke......err, syufiah(go,go PBSM!) mazrina aka seywel/mazlan..!!..just so you dude know, we are all incredibly awesome! hehehe
All us crazy gurls plus all those refarded boys equal juvenile chaos, havoc and mayhem! If you're ever hung out with us, you would know what I mean.. and then you'll probably go crazy too! Which is not so bad, once you get used ti it..!So, anytime you need to unwind, burst your eardrums, damage your brain or just plain go insance, drop by 2RK..our door is always open(unless its closed and locked!)~created by syazz azman~
singing off for family in 2RK

just a poem

2008-10-16T21:02:00.000-07:00

Emo love poem..

I keep on thinking your mad

I'd rather be dead

Was it something I did

That you just hid

Everytime I think

I think of you

Everytime I blink
I don't know what to do

I wish I could help you

But I don't know how

You know I love you

Even now

I sometimes cry

Sometimes for you

I'm sorry to pry

I just don't know what to do

I don't know how to help you

Which makes me mad

I feel very uselsee
Which makes me sad

i love to talk to you

But theres no time in the day

Please don't go away'

I love you

Just stay another day

for someone that i love

2008-10-15T07:23:00.000-07:00

Love is the only bow on life's dark cloud.
It is the Morning and the Evening Star.
It shines upon the cradle of the babe,
and sheds its radiance upon the quiet tomb.
It is the mother of Art,inspirer of poet, patriot, and philosopher.
It is the air and light of every heart,
builder of every home,
kindler of every fire on every hearth.
It was the first to dream of immortality.
It fills the world with melody,
for Music is the voice of Love.
Love is the magician,
the enchanter,
that changes worthless things to joy,
and makes right royal kings and queens of common clay.
It is the perfume of the wondrous flower --

ask me why i keep on loving you?
when it's dear that you don't feel the same way for me....
the problem is..as much as i can't force you to love me..
i can't force myself to stop loving you!!
luv u sooo much n i hope that our relationship will last longer..

what's this? hmm..layan j la

2008-09-26T22:22:00.000-07:00

When you break her heart===[ the pain never really goes away ]
When she misses you===[ shes hurting inside]
When she says its over===[ she still wants you to be hers ]
When she reposts this bulletin===[ she wants you to read it ]
When she walks away from you mad===[ Follow her]
When she stare's at your mouth===[ Kiss her ]
When she pushes you or hit's you===[ Grab her and don’t let go ]
When she start's cursing at you===[ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]
When she's quiet===[ Ask her what’s wrong]
When she ignore's you===[ Give her your attention]
When she pulls away==[ Pull her back ]
When you see her at her worst===[ Tell her she's beautiful ]
When you see her start crying==[Just hold her and don’t say a word ]
When you see her walking==[ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]
When she's scared===[ Protect her ]
When she lay's her head on your shoulder===[ Tilt her head up and kiss her ]
When she steal's your favorite hat==[ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]
When she tease's you===[ Tease her back and make her laugh ]
When she doesn’t answer for a long time===[ reassure her that everything is okay ]
When she looks at you with doubt==[ Back yourself up with the truth]
When she say's that she like's you==[ she really does more than you could understand ]
When she grab's at your hands===[ Hold her's and play with her fingers ]
When she bump's into you===[ bump into her back and make her laugh ]
When she tells you a secret===[ keep it safe and untold]
When she looks at you in your eyes===[ don’t look away until she does]-
Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything
- DON'T let her have the last word
- Call her Hot...but Gorgeous or Beautiful is soo much better
- Say you love her more than she could ever love you- Argue that she is the best girl ever
- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go
- When she says she&#39

bad time..bad day..sweet memory..

2008-09-26T05:29:00.000-07:00

ah..smlm mmg ari pling trok dlm sej form2 aku ni..asl aku rase cm da x d mood ni? asl? aku x sangke bnde ni le jd..aku mmg x caye..aku syg gler dgn die, tp die wt cmni..asl? ap salah aku? sbnanye aku da sedar ttg prubhan die dari 2 minggu lpas..die cm da x nk lyan aku j..aku mmg ade niat nk mntak clash, tp aku sbar j...tngok2 die yg mntak..ahh...aku mmg mnyesal tol..aku x sangke bnde yg cmni le jd..dah le die tu first aku!! aku syg gler..aku x le lupekn die..n aku arp satu ari nnt aku akn le lupekn die..yg pling x le lupe ni..bnde ni blaku dlm bulan rmadan..mmg sedih..
asl laki ni x le setie pd yg1 a? asl? asl diorg tu tlebeh ego ah? asl diorg tu cpat boring..susah k nk setie?? susah?..aku x tau nk ckp cmne ag..dah mmg nseb aku..kalo aku tau bnde ni akn jd dari dulu..aku akn jage die baek2...aku rindu die yg dulu..die yg peramah..die yg happy..die yg suke bgurau..die yg pndai wt lwak..die yg slalu wt aku appy..aku nk die yg dulu,..aku nk die yg dulu!! die yg dulu x cmni....mane pg nye die yg appy?!! tp smuenye da brubah!!...skarg ni aku cm da x knal ag die yg dulu..aku cm da x tau spe die ag?
tp aku redha..bnde yg jd msti ade sbb kn? tol x? kite x le nk ngis sbb lelaki..idop ni msih pnjang..aku x nk musnhkn idop aku ni hnye sbb sorang LELAKI..!! ..aku pker2 balik..x pyah nk arpkn die ag..aku ade kwan2 yg syangkn aku..tol x? kwan2 yg lbeh fham aku..kwan2 yg le tolong aku time aku susah..tol x?? aku sedih2 j dtg skool td..ingat mmg x d mood nk appy..tp sebaliknye yg jd..aku mkin HAPPY!! sbb ade kwan2 yg le wat aku gmbire..!! kwan2 yg le ilangkn boring aku..kwan2 aku nyanyikn aku lagu..wat lwak2 bodoh..mmg bez..walopn bez..aku msih ingat die gak..knape???????? kenape???? but i'll try to throw him away from my mind..!!
aku rase ade baeknye gak aku clash thn ni..at least bukn thn dpan..time aku nk amek PMR..kalo bnde tu jd time aku nk amek PMR..aku rase aku dah gagal exam da..!!..aku dah mlas da nk couple2 ni..aku dah give up...!! aku x nk dsakiti ag..insyaallah aku x kn bcouple ag smpai abiz form5..or smpai abiz blajr..!!..biar la die yg jd first aku n yg las aku utk zman psekolhn aku ni..aku arap korg yg bce blog aku ni le doakn aku spaye aku x kn dpat lupekn die n bjaye dlm PMR thn dpan gak..thank u..
end of this topic-assalamualaikum-

my favourite song..n artist

2008-09-23T03:16:00.000-07:00

first at all..i wanna tell a story about this girl..her name is AVRIL LAVIGNE n of course u all know..she was born on 27 september 1984 in Canada..she's married already..this singer is already have three album which are: - let go
- under my skin
- the best damn thing

fall to piece-avril lavigne
i looked away
then i loke back at u
u try to say
the things that u can't undo
if i had my way
i'd never get over u
today's the day
i pray that we make it through

make it through the fall
make it through it all

n i don't want to fall a pieces
i just want to sit and stare at u
i don't want to talk about it
and i don't want a conversation
i just want to cry in front of u
i don't want to talk about it
cuz i'm in love with u

you're the only one
i'd be with till the end
when i come undone
u bring me back again
back under the stars
back into your arms

wanna know who u r
wanna know where to start
i wanna know what this means

wanna know how u feel
wanna know what is real
i wanna know everything, eeverything

i'm in love with u...
cuz i'm in love with u

this song was really awsom..i like it sooo much..
it meant something..when the first time i heard this song, i just wanna cry coz i've been in that situaition...this song is about a girl who really loves her boyfriend..but her boyfrind juz dont care about her anymore..it is like her boyfriend does not love her anymore but he juz don't want to tell her..mayb he just afraid to hurt her feelings..hmm..a really sad song..

about 2rk class

2008-09-22T15:20:00.000-07:00

As I am writing this as of this moment,I am 14 years old and study at SMK Pandan Jaya.I am in the class 2RK.It is the top class and usually it means that it contains the smartest but not really smart and maybe the least noisiest class.Yet this story of my class as I am about to unfold is something untypical yet it is the modern everyday school life as a teenager.In this class we've got32 students.The problem is this:We are the most problematic top class the teachers have ever seen and we can even keep our voice down( I'm saying like as if we are doing voices like in the opera eg.La Carlotta if you remember the "Phantom Of The Opera").Teachers have been criticising us for more than half a year and yet we never change.Room for improvement?Yes please.Well I have to admit,even though I am a prefect I still join my friends and make all sorts of noises.Its like entertainment but it comes with a big price to pay:INDISCIPLINE!Well our class does get toned down once we received err..some lectures from the teachers.The weird thing about our class is that some don't even finish their homework,pass up their work and apparently as I heard from some friends of mine,staying home to finish their homework(Don't tell anyone!).So my class is pretty much the pioneers for an indisciplined top class.There are also speculations and stories in our class like love,study,cheating and err..you get the picture.So it is not the most extraordinary thing you've heard yet its the most surprising and dumbfounding thing you'll ever seen or heard.Gossips are what you normally hear from television in the entertainment industry but for it to come from a class like ours,its never the most amusing thing for the teachers.Some teachers had to tell certain students to keep their eyes and minds on studying,don't lose grip on education though it seems all the hard work the teachers have done doesn't seem to bear fruit at the moment.Not in the right frail of mind?Maybe.Fraility of the mind is the least thing you'll need when your in a class like mine.Besides that,we have students who over-exaggerates and think they are so popular.Miss Popularity?Huh..I don't think I would give a damn anout that.There was one moment of exaggeration when I accidentally dropped that someone's spectacles.Then she screams and says it is worth RM 400.My mind was saying:"What is she trying to prove?".Exaggeration was what she did as I didn't do it purpose yet she yell as if it is the end of the world when the spectacles dropped.It didn't had any scratches and barely any marks or problems.I just couldn't believe it.Futhermore,you got girls in groups thinking they are so popular and beautiful when the truth is actually far from it.Get the picture?Yet again,these things turn into gossips and later cause chaos in our class.Peace just cannot be restored in our class.Yet I must say the teachers teaching our class have been exceptionally professional and great.They are still so calm and patient in handling our notorious class.You've gotta take your hats down for the teachers.Even when hopes are all down,the teachers just get along with it and teach the students towards the gate glory in education.I definitely have to thank the teachers.If it was me,I'm not so sure whether I would've been that patient with that kind of behaviour.Oh...have I mentioned,our class is specialise in calling names and using names of fathers and mothers as jokes?I guess not and you've probably never think about that even half a chance of that happening.In our class,we've got the Arumugams,Loganathans,Dobbies,Honings,Sharifudins,Hashim,Hussein and many more.Its the truth,I can't hide that fact.It has become a trend and even other schools are affected but of course,we didn't spread that contagious disease.So you get what I mean.Our class is extraordinary and something never before seen but still its a great enviroment.There is still good in the class.In my class you get to see the true hardship and friendship,something that no other classes can have.When someone is in dire trouble we unite to help him in anyway.We never stay down and keep it to ourselves.That is the good part about our class.It is great.When you don't know something,we can be free to ask someone for assistance.That person is sure to help the other in our class.Yup,there is nowhere better than having friendship like ours in or class.Signing off for Class 2RK....

about me..(malay version)

2008-09-22T06:38:00.000-07:00

huh...hai guys..

name aku hafizah..aku ni org yg simple2 j...aku tinggal kat Malaysia, ampang..aku ade 7 adek-bradik, mmg rmai..n bingit tol umah aku..tp x p, aku suke rmai2, x boring..aku ni jenis yg x ske bgaul sngt sbb aku ni mudah tepengaruh...lg2 budak2 nkal kt skol aku tu..ade yg isap rokok..budak brutel..!! e... geram j..mayb korang yg x knal aku akn kate aku ni sombong...n mmg rmai yg da ckp cngitu pn...aku x gsah..yg pnting kekwan aku suke kwan ngan aku...

hmm..ap ag e..??

hah..aku ni x suke org yg hipokrit!! suke mencapap!! mmg benci..nak famous tp gunekn org laen...mmg pantang..kat skol aku jenis yg suke senyum n gelak2...bile kate happy go lucky r...

tp x d r keterlaluan sesngat..aku tau batas2 nye..lolz...aku x suke org yg suke kutok2 blakg2..n aku suke bkwan dgn org yg suke wat lwak..sbb diorg tu le wat aku happy bile aku cdeh....aku ni jenis yg emosional cket..~ngee~ ..senang merajok..tp x kn tunjok kt org..kalo aku benci org tu skali pn, aku x kn bg tau..aku suke pendam2..so kbnyakn kwan aku x kn tau diri aku yg sbnarnye..cume yg tol2 rpat tu tau la..

hah!! lg 1..aku x ske org yg suke lbehkn bf die drpd kwan...n suke2 crite psl laki2...kalo cket2 tu ade r join gak..lolz..aku ni slalu change mood..skejp tngok happy..skejp cdeh..skejp bengang..skejp nk ngis..~ngee~..tp bile aku badmood tu..jgn la cube2 nk wat lwak bodoh..kalo wat..hmm rase lah makan kasut aku ni..!!... tu j lah psal aku kot...aku tau sape aku...so korg yg x tau tu jgn2 la nk mnilai aku dari luar j...k..(~_~)