heart

I hate the way u talk 2 me
And the way u cut your hair
I hate the way u make me smile
I hate it when u stare
I hate your dumb combat boots
And the way u read my mind
I hate u so much.. it makes me sick
It even make me rhyme
I hate it-
I hate the way you’re always right
I hate it when u lie
I hate it when u make me laugh,
Even worse then u make me cry
I hate it when u’re not around
And the fact that u didn’t call
But mostly, I hate the way I don’t hate u
Not even close,
Not even a little bit
Not even at all

home sweet home..

well as u guys wish.. i'm active back in blog.. haah..!! afte a long..long tyme
what's da topic rite now.. wait.wait.. let me guess..
err..
err..
haah!!
NOTHING...
juz went back home from seseri.. aahhh.. as usual.. miss all ma fwn especially da cutty2 maz.. fafa.. fary..atul n blablabla..
soo stress stay in seseri.. although it is oredy 1month pass but i still cant get along wif them.. stress..stress.. only 1 things in their mind.. STUDY..STUDY.. no tyme 2 chat2.. joking2.. WOOT??!! i kno i'm not crazy bout book but plzzz.. help me out...!!
first prob n da really..really critical 1 is i still cannot do add.mths.. dunt understand wat da teacher doin.. we r oredy in chapter 3 but i feel nothing!! nothing stick in my mind about add.maths..nothing at all..
second prob is sleepy!!!
zzZZZzzzzZZzZzz..
especially in maths subject.. it is always in da last period.. well u kno..hot day..tired.. what else i can do other then sleep..?? but sumtimes in physic n history olso lyke that.. haha.. light off at 11.50 pm.. but we usually sleep at 12pm.. wake up at 4.30.. imagine how much time i sleep in a day??
some friends were sooo damn annoying n i really hate them!!! more then i hate the DM (dewan makan) food.. lol..haha.. shuu...(dun tell anyone).. they r kind of people that i, myself cannot describe.. soo annoying.. lyke 2 show off.. think that they r really great.. got this..got that.. got blablabla.. takling lyke they have thousands mouth!! err.. like i care bout their life anyway.. i have only 2 bezfwen there..one in my dome n 1 in class.. but there r 3 actually.. 1 oredy leavin.. in ma dome ofcoz da 1 that sleep bhind me (share 1 bed ectually) hehe.. NANA.. u r da one.. n in class is SYABIHAH aka cubby aka shabby.. luv u guyz soo much.. muah..muah..we have da same hobby..same interest..same future career n many more..
last 2 weeks we have the 'merentas desa' run.. joining da MILO program in Mount Kiara..soo damn tired.. i feel like running for 10 km although it is only 6.5 km.. lol.. it is just like a jungle treaking coz we run around da mountain..hahaha..lolololol... wake up early at 4am.. start da trip at around..err.. not really sure but maybe around 5.50am.. haah..
zzz
zzz
zzz
now i'm at home.. feel like in da moon.. whoo.. whee... ziiiiiizzzzgg... wif a big smile in ma face..
but another 7 days i'm going back 2 da earth...sobsobsob wif a big great dump..!!
goin back 2 seseri.. lol
sign off

life must go on..

haih.. arini ari ahad 31.2.10
aq riindu sesgt kwn2.. baru 2 ari aq klua dari smkpj..lg 2 ari nk g asrama dah.. aq rindu mazrina..carmen..emy..fari.. n lg2 izatul..aq sayang diorg.. stiap kali aq nk tido, aq akn nangis bile pk ttg diorg.. aq pk cmne maz bile xde aq.. aq risau ade org nk papekn dye.. aq risau dye sunyi..
aq xle lupekn knangan 3pk1 yg dulu.. syg sesgt kt diorg..
dulu mase 3pk1 .. tu la kwn 2 aq..kwn2 yg ley tolng aq mase aq susah.. kwn2 yg ley wat aq gmbire bile sedih.. mase aq dpt rsult terok, diorg slalu ade utk tolng aq.. satu kls tu mcm 1 family.. walopn ade 3kaum berbeza, tp kitowg xpnh ade sempadan.. kitorg mmg rapat..
rase susah sgt nk lupekn.. mmg stiap prtmuan ade prpisahan.. tp terlalu sakit bile pk kan..
mase 3pk1 dulu ade 1 group yg mmg smtimes wat aq bengang..tp diorg sgt2 baik.. suke wat lwak bodo.. xde diorg kls tu xkn cerie.. klo korng ade kt kls tu tntu korng tau sape.. dye fakhrul,syarul n nazren.. diorg sntiase g memane sesame.. slalu kenekn org laen sesame.. slalu curi alat tulis aq..
yg laen cm razlin, syaz, n syida.. diorg mmg bez,, raz slalu tergelak2 bile org ckp psl dye.. dye pndai jage prasaan aq.. dye pnh tolng aq psl 1 bnde n aq xkn lupe.. mekaseh razlin..
aq rindu smue org.. diorg mmg periang.. group laen cm chua,leon,ruben,nick n nesh pon sgt bez.. diorg slalu bgaduh psl bnde remeh2.. tp skejp je diorg ley baek2 smule.. kalo bab plajaran, smue nk menang.. sntiase bersaing.. lol..
btol ckp sorng kwn aq.. kalo aq da pindah nnt aq xkn ade org lg nk kcau2 aq..or buli aq.. aq rindu korng.. dye ckp lg kalo aq blah skola u nnt xkn ade kwan yg gile2 cm syawal.. xkn ade masalah kipas rosak lg..xkn ade org yg nk memekak kt lua kls cm berok.. xde lg org nk nyanyi2 dgn suare yg xsedap.. xde lawak bodo..xde owg nk ejek aq azman lg.. xde org nk ckp aq chipsmore lg.. xde org nk ckp aq batman lg.. ARRGH!!! MISS U GUYZ SOO DAMN MUCH!!
tu mmg betol.. fiza rindu smue org.. fana da pindah SAB..hus pon same.. fari g teknik.. smue kwn fiza yg baik2 tinggalkn fiza.. maz pon da xde..
lps ni xde sape nk ckp fiza bodo lg,, xde org nk tampar2 fiza..xde org nk crite ttg lagu2 bez ngn fiza.. kalo dulu smue carmen yg buat bnde tu.. tp slarg.. smue da ilng.. smue dgn jln masing2..
kalo dulu mazrina slalu ade utk nangis sesame.. maz slalu crite ttg azri.. kalo tgk maz nangis,,smue nangis skaly.. kalo dulu 3pk1 kne marah ngn cikgu..slalu dgr suare ckgu misnah..skarg ni xlg.. rindu ckgu misnah.. rindu smue ckgu yg laen.. ckgu maizura..ckgu intan..ckgu zaleha.. n smue2 ckgu..
mase las skola yg akn wat fiza xkn lupekn diorg smue.. aq dah janji kt diri aq yg aq xkn nangis.. aq da janji.. tp aq xbole.. xbole tinggalkn kwn2.. lg mase diorg nyanyi lagu perpisahan.. air mate aq jatuh mcm hujan.. xboleh berhenti.. diorg btol2 wat aq sedih.. tp tu la saat yg aq mmg xley n xkn lupekn... saat air mate aq menitis terlalu banyak dpn2 kwn aq.. saat aq peluk kwn2 aq.. diorg kawan yg paling baik n xde pengganti.. 3pk1 2009 akn jd ingatan selame2 nye.. FIZA MISS U GUYS KENGKAWAN.. JGN LUEKN FIZA... SBB FIZA XKN LUPEKN KOWNG.. salam sayang

about this 2 month

lame gler x update blog nie.. serius xde mase... busy ngn trial PMR.. exam2 lain n mcm2..
dahle dari pekse 1st tu asyik dpt 7a1b.. xpnh dpt 8a.. biase r yg b tu english..
huuh.. kt skola td mmh wat aku bengang.. syarul nazren n fakrus slalu wat hal.. lg2 si nazren tu..
slalu jew amik pnsil box aku.. bwak lari..botol air aku pon ilang.. uuuhhh.... sjak bile aku jd sasaran diorg dlm klas nie...??

td aku geram sgt ngn syarul sbb dye nk ejek aku.. aku komot kn krtas dye yg ckgu bg utk prtndingan lukis katun bnde tah...haha... klakar gile aku tgk muke syarul tyme tu.. hhhhaahahaahahha!!!!! then dye g ngedek kt razlin.. razlin juz pgang pipi dye je.. haha xdilayan.. n ade ag konflik yg pling teruk.. td dpt krtas bahagian due utk paper bi.. miss v bagi kertas exam lewat.. wktu tu tyme subjek seni, syarul tetibe bgtau yg vimal ckp ssuatu kt miss v sbb miss v tertengking dye sbb miss v tgh marak kt dak kls 3pk5... ksian vimal.. tp dye mmg xpatut ckp pkataan tu kt cikgu/....

hari tu g wedding ckgu maizura.. dah xde bnyak nk bgtau sbb dah ampir 3 or 4 minggu.. ingat tyme balik wed tu trus nk update.. tp mase dah xcukup.. almaklum aku nie busy n mls ciket... but congrats r kt cikgu maizura..

huu.. skarg nie aku btol2 xphm ngn dak laki 3 org yg duduk kt barisan tgh baris yg ke 4... FAKRUL.. SYARUL .. N NAZREN!!!... diorg tu mmg pelik sesangat but fakrul la yg paling ok... xpelik sgt cm syarul n nazren tu.. haaaishh... lg2 nazren r... ikotkn ati nie nak je aku lempang muke dye.. tp xleh sbb dye tu laki.. so aku ape ag.. sepak je r kaki dye.. xtau r sakit ke x.. kalo sakit ag aku suke.. hahahha jahat r aku nie.. hehe.. aku pk2 kn balik.. nk wat cmne kn dah diorg tu laki.. hakikat yg laki mmg xreti dok diam n aku xde marah sgt kt diorg sbb diorg tu kwan aku.. btol ckp diorg dulu.. aku xle doakn yg buruk2 kat dyeorg sbb kalo bnde tu jd aku yg akn mnysal sbb dah de sape yg nk wat lwak bodo kt kls.. nak nyanyi lgu nasyid n jiwang yg xbrape sdap tu.. hhehehe

mase karnival koko lak agaak boring r... xde pape yg bez selain makanan..mkanan.. n mkanan..
the n aku lepak r kt gerai azri n syami... bez r... tolng diorg meniage.. 1st tyme aku dpt tngok syami bcakap n bgurau gler cmtu.. dye slalu diam jew.. but at all dye la laki yg palink baik n normal kt kls tu,... hehe slain muhaimin..

ade ag crite yg lbih gempak!!! aku mule sdar ttg bnde nie sjak last 3 week... stiap kali aku tgk muke dye, jntung aku bdebar2 kuat gler.. aku risau kalo aku ske kt dak nie.. cume 1 org je tau psl nie n izatul r..sape ag.. aku tol2 takot kalo ake de ske kt sesape ag.. aku tanak ade ske sesape dlm idop aku.. serius aku tanak.. pengalaman lpas mengajaar aku supaye aku jd lbih matang.. dulu aku couple pon sbb nak try n rahsie yg teramat besar tu mase aku couple ngn dak nie... aku xpnh ade prasaan suke kt dye.. lps 3 minggu couple baru aku ade prasaan kt dye... n lps kite clash tu aku teros xske dye sangat mcm aku ske dye dulu.. tats y kali ke2 aku clash ngn dye aku xsdih sgt.. kali ke3 ag r.. hahha.. tp utk dak A nie aku xkn bgtau sesape.. bia atul sorng je tau...aku akn pastikn smpai abiz skola xkn ade yg tau.. walopn si A ni sndiri.. tp dulu mase fm1 dak A ni la yg aku paling xske sbb dye agk menakutkn... hahha.. skarg aku tau yg dye btol2 gentlement n baik.. n baik n baik n baik... walopn skarg dye xsame kls ngn aku.. aku n atul da prhatikn dak A nie.. lg1 dye mmg smart pkai unifom skola lengan pnjang.. izatul pon ade rahsie yg sgt besar n aku je taau.. pdn muke syawal tu.. hahha

k r ne off lu nk mkn mlm.. tkot kne marah.. hhehe
bye.. salam

mimpi ngeri

td kat skool de suntikn utk kancing gigi...
wooo~~~ takot giler la... sape kate xsakit??~~ sakit giler.. dhle jarom tu pnjang sgt, nak pngsan aku tngok... pstu cikgu singham xbg bwak kwan masok bilik tuh.. lg tmbah takot aku..
huhu.. paling lawak tyme nurse yg nak suntik aku tu suroh aku dudok pastu aku lari g kat pintu sbb nk klua.. wawawa... seraam~~pastu tyme dye nak suntik tu aku pegang tangan dye.. lame je aku dlm bilik tuh.. ngengengokngek..
yg pelik tu.. smue org kate xsakit.. dak laki lg la.. semangat giler.. hebat lah diorg.. wengweweng.. aku kene ejek ngn kwn2 sbb takot jarom.. tp mmg hakikat yg aku takot jarom n lg2 darah.. leh pengsan aku tgk..huhu.. tyme subjek las nak balik..tetibe ganesha picit tngan aku..woow!!..sakit gilew..
tyme balik ade class tmbahan utk kh.. tp aku mls nak dtg.. so lari balik la ngn fana..hehe..
mak aku xde umah.. kne balik jln kaki.. syawal suro bwk basikal dye.. mereng je dak tuh.. huhu
then fana amek kunci basikal syawal.. smpai skarg xbg2 balik.. wohoho.. maybe dye tgh ngn atul kt skolah.. kcian dye.. xle bwk balik basikal.. hmm.. pape je lah.. esok fana bg balik lah tu..
off..

..ThE pErFeCt KiNgDoM..

WeLcOmE To tHe sEyWeL kInGdOm..

The term 'The Worst Best Class' isnt alien to us students of 3pk1..nope, we get it all the time, actually! but I figure, there's nothing wrong with being memorable ( even if it is in a bad way! ) Anyway, there r many groups in our crazy class..

n we are always do crazy stuff such as
calling friend's name by using names of fathers and mothers as jokes..
haha.. we all get arumugams, dobby, kimball, soil, hussein, wong lo kat, logam n many more in our crazy class...

busy checking handfones!

what's sooo funny??!

peace to the world..

ruben, you r too small.. go away so that i can sit..

hehe

we are a ROCK couple..

hehe..

i'm a great teacher.. so listen to me..
hehe

when you look me in the eyes...

stupid meeting

say cheese...

we are great friends.. always helping each other..

hey syawal??!! go away.. u r soo smelly..!! hehe

there are some picture of ThE seYwEl KiNgDoM..

"In my class you get to see the true hardship and friendship, something that no other classes can have. When someone is in dire trouble we unite to help them in anyway.We never stay down and keep it to ourselves. That is the good part about our class. It is great. When you don't know something, we can be free to ask someone for assistance. That person is sure to help the other in our class.Yup, there is nowhere better than having friendship like ours in or class."

-ryan-

malaysian today

BE MATURE ABOUT IT.. OR NOT..

it breaks your heart to see the one u love happy wif some1 else..
but it's more painful to kno that the one u luv is unhappy wif u..

seriously? i think that juz a load of cr*p actually. ok fine, being in a relationship where both parties are miserable is not a good thing but preferring him 2 be happy with some1 else? i think not!

you see, it's always portrayed that being the bigger person means being able to say that you're happy if he's happy, or that u want nothing but happiness for him, or u wish him all the best.. but how many of u really believe you're saying? unless you decided to stay friends, which is a rarity, odds are that u don't really want the best 4 him..!

we've all heard the saying, "hell hath no fury like a woman scorned" and even if u manage to keep all ur resentment in, u have 2 admit that seeing him miserable 4 the rest of his life would'nt b such a bad thing. well, until u find happiness at least!

when u break up with some1 n go your seperate ways, it is still interesting to keep track of some1 n what they're up 2. and much as we don't like 2 admit it, there is a little competition going on it. who is doing better? who has moved on faster? who has started dating first? who is enjoing life more? it all adds up and whoever says that they're not keeping score is lying!

but let's go back to the phrase above. i've asked around n a lot of girls have admited that they would'nt really rather see his ex happy with some1 else. it dosen't mean that they still have feelings for the guy; sometimes it all just boils down to pride and ego. questions like 'why he is happy with her and not with me?' or 'WHAT DOES SHE HAVE THAT I DON'T?' or even just the very honest 'WHY SHOULD HE BE HAPPY?' arise whenever an ex finds someone new.

we all know that the mature thing to do would be 2 wish the other person well and just move on with ur life. unfortunately, that's not such an easy thing 2 do. MUCH AS WE HATE 2 ADMIT IT, HOPING THE OTHER PRSON IS UNHAPPY IS MUCH CLOSER 2 THE TRUTH. after all, what is more ego-boosting than knowing that the person is just miserable without u? of course, there are exceptions 2 the case; for example, if u broke it off bcoz you've met some1 new or your relationship has just run its course and u mutually decide 2 part ways.

the thing is, we're not trying to b mean. part of us actually means it when we say the nice things and maybe a part of us does want him 2 eventually find happiness... juz not be4 we do! in the meantime, we say that we're expected 2 say (and try to mean it) and we carry on. and hopefully, we give the impression of being mature!